Depression

It’s Complicated

Leave me alone, please and stop annoying me. Of course I love you. I don’t blame you for everything. You are pissing me off now. Do not make me say something I will regret. Of course I want to go to your oncology appointment. You never told me what time we had to go. You […]

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life with cancer

The Gift of Receiving Care

With a metastatic cancer diagnosis it’s imperative that I humbly and graciously accept aid, comfort, support and do so with an open heart and mind. My well-being depends on it. In the past I found it far more difficult to take than give, but my recent caregiving experiences have given me insight into the importance of receiving care to the giver not only the receiver.

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Cancer Poetry

In Limbo

Dancing towards me He cuts in and I’m removed like a tumor With his sharpened scalpel Dripping with the blood of anger. I do a lonely limbo for him Bent under my fears and sharp pain My back broken from comparisons To exotic island breasts Atop trained heel high legs. Sinking into the dance floor […]

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life with cancer

What’s Eating Me? What I Cannot Eat.

Webster’s New English Dictionary online Definition of die, for English Language Learners: to stop living to end life in a specified state or condition to have or suffer (a specified kind of death) What happened to the singular of dice? Even Webster’s occasionally leaves out an obvious definition. Eat. Even one meal a day to […]

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Laughter is the best medicine

You Got This🤜🏻🤛🏻🤮

“You got this!” For so many reasons those three little words trip my gag reflex. Even more nauseating than when I meet someone for the first time, and after a rousing conversation, my bones crackle like Rice Krispies bathing in cold milk from the the high torque of the predictable tearful hug of a virtual […]

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