Rantings of a Metastatic Lunatic

From which neuroses did this fear grow from and how do I continue to kill the weeds before they take over the fertile garden of my mind? Does fear fertilize the same physical mutations in which cancer grows best? Maybe these connections strengthen or weaken our immunity to pain and illnesses. I’ve come to believe there’s no such thing as a mind-body connection, because the mind (in my mind) is the body and the body is the mind. There’s no schism that separates the two, not even the blood brain barrier.… Read More Rantings of a Metastatic Lunatic

#moreformbc hashtag – use it

twitter.com/gma/status/1050369773253480449 well, here’s another hashtag in our #breastcancer life to pay attention to – quite literally. $100 for every use of the #moreformbc hashtag from Lily pharmaceuticals. My feeling that our metastatic breast cancer community might agree to a using a few standard hashtags to bring our voices together. We should sound stronger and united… Read More #moreformbc hashtag – use it

I will pray for you

There’s no cancer Mecca where everyone faces east at a specific time of day to pray. If your words are true, come sit with me and share your prayers. Else, please don’t say you pray as a good way to design an end to a conversation you’d rather not have. If I can handle nearly every night in the hospital since thanksgiving except for this last week, it’s okay not to pray or say you even think about it, but maybe you do. So, my heart says, “leave it alone and don’t look a gift rabbi in the mouth.” But I can’t.… Read More I will pray for you