life with cancer

Canferatu VS The Depression Devil

One night last week Canferatu possessed my intestinal tract. The inhuman noises growled low and deep, as surely once awake, I’d look in the bathroom mirror to find I’d become vampiric, zombified, even bloodless. Only the undead, at least in movies, moan as though they’ve contracted a case of projectile diarrhea. Further proof of my […]

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life with cancer

The Gift of Receiving Care

With a metastatic cancer diagnosis it’s imperative that I humbly and graciously accept aid, comfort, support and do so with an open heart and mind. My well-being depends on it. In the past I found it far more difficult to take than give, but my recent caregiving experiences have given me insight into the importance of receiving care to the giver not only the receiver.

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Cancer Poetry

Tropic of Cancer

I. He Quick stepping and waltzing Precise as a surgeon cuts into The body, like a first kiss. Her softness ages his face. Speech fails him, words Slurred with the stroke of An unset clock stuttering Her number in the dark. His hand reaches under her breast Bone tapping out a beat Inside her hallowed […]

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life with cancer

What’s Eating Me? What I Cannot Eat.

Webster’s New English Dictionary online Definition of die, for English Language Learners: to stop living to end life in a specified state or condition to have or suffer (a specified kind of death) What happened to the singular of dice? Even Webster’s occasionally leaves out an obvious definition. Eat. Even one meal a day to […]

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Poetry

Fool’s Waltz

Until the day comes when my breath no longer returns to my lungs, Air lifted away by winter, Leaving you, yet wanting to stay much longer, The remains of us forming clear ice sheets frozen atop beds of still water. When the last faded bloom of your want wilts again, And the secret garden of […]

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