My Cancer Ate My Patience

My patience left my body and vocabulary not so long ago. It buried itself in our unorganized two car garage near the washer and dryer. It’s adverb “patiently” waiting and hiding from other eyes under some mildewed, smelly step kid laundry I refuse to wash after two years. … Read More My Cancer Ate My Patience

Fly Away Home, Blessed Body

A blue velvet bag opened by this single
Movement – her hand reached
Into the spaciousness above
And all stars’ light unpacked, and
Secreted away in drawer full of daydreams.
Now the seashore glistens
With the promise of night, and
Eternally luminous
With all the befores,
And all the ever afters,
Moving our millions of tears
Into a single smiling river.
“Goodnight my beautiful bodies,”
And we fly away home, laughing.… Read More Fly Away Home, Blessed Body

Humid

Unlatch me, catch and return me scales, underbitten and in the flesh A real guest of honor. Crumpled shirts creased, A Western hanging for Black hats. Barn door closets Open and craving smart suits. Drawers devoid of life, Almost empty except Gideon’s guide book — The Special Edition With tourist maps all Pointing north at… Read More Humid

The Gracie Foundation

The Gracie Foundation – a gift from heaven from a woman who left a legacy of love and a little treat of relief to those of us finding our own way through metastatic breast cancer. Nominations for the care package at www.thegraciefoundationinc.org… Read More The Gracie Foundation

CATS and KITTENS!

You can bet that any video, story, blog post, meme or feature about cats and kittens far outreaches any similar piece on any form of cancer. Who in their right mind wouldn’t want to watch the oldest cat video of two kittens in a boxing ring wearing tiny little gloves made in 1884? I’d bet way more than any video on cancer prevention which has a far better chance of killing you than an angry rabid kitten. Do I need statistics to prove my point? Unlikely.… Read More CATS and KITTENS!

How to Listen, Artfully

Erich Fromme’s Art of Listening- the rules of how to engage with someone and truly listen and comprehend what’s being said. … Read More How to Listen, Artfully

One Fresh Hell, Hold the Tomatoes

Yearning for my partner’s support and the kind of tender and caring love many of which many metastatic sisters write and blog about, I now look over at him, home in bed, and find one whose dark, inky emotions remain locked away inside his heart, like the stars behind clouds in a dark night sky. He lays there disengaged, thinking to himself about things that cause long bouts of sighing, and the simmering anger of so many men who find themselves bitten by such disorders.… Read More One Fresh Hell, Hold the Tomatoes

The Light of Reason

The light of reason
Shines least
On the most alluring
Accompaniments.… Read More The Light of Reason

Positively Connected

I can choose to live as a source of conscious positivity – to illustrate my point beautifully take Richard Feynman’s excited and animated discussion of how rubber bands work. Feynman explains in this must watch video by the BBC, how atoms jiggle when excited by other atoms in some way. … Read More Positively Connected

It is what it is, huh?

If “it is what it is,” why is it so the collateral damage of metastatic cancer so fucking hard?… Read More It is what it is, huh?