life with cancer

Canferatu VS The Depression Devil

One night last week Canferatu possessed my intestinal tract. The inhuman noises growled low and deep, as surely once awake, I’d look in the bathroom mirror to find I’d become vampiric, zombified, even bloodless. Only the undead, at least in movies, moan as though they’ve contracted a case of projectile diarrhea. Further proof of my […]

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life with cancer

The Gift of Receiving Care

With a metastatic cancer diagnosis it’s imperative that I humbly and graciously accept aid, comfort, support and do so with an open heart and mind. My well-being depends on it. In the past I found it far more difficult to take than give, but my recent caregiving experiences have given me insight into the importance of receiving care to the giver not only the receiver.

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life with cancer

What’s Eating Me? What I Cannot Eat.

Webster’s New English Dictionary online Definition of die, for English Language Learners: to stop living to end life in a specified state or condition to have or suffer (a specified kind of death) What happened to the singular of dice? Even Webster’s occasionally leaves out an obvious definition. Eat. Even one meal a day to […]

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life with cancer

Relay for Life

Finally, after three years and some months, my energy and my spirit rose to the occasion, not only to passively raise money but to also actively participate in the American Cancer Society’s Relay for Life. I’m on a local San Jose team, which I came to know a couple of years ago at an estate […]

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