Losses

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I’m not afraid of my city, the way people once behaved as one might catch cancer if they came close to me.

Stranger hours bring strangers in the darkness and the night closes down the city.

In the darkness there’s a hiding place for everyone.

In everyone there’s a place where darkness resides.

We reside where the damp air creates webs around street lights

Where the lights cast only enough to break into the air thick as Texas toast.

I’ll meet you for breakfast at 3 a.m. for toast and coffee.

We’ll watch the steam rise up from our cups of coffee like dew around streetlights.

And you shake the dew from your mackintosh, remove your toque and hang them like a perspective on the coat rack.

Missing you reminds me of the perspective that life and loss walk the same road though we feel so alone.

And you say I’m alone now. You ask me to come back and love you again.

Again I rise to leave a man who is the loss of who walks along the empty street next to me.

I’m lost I tell you, and love left with you so long ago.

So long I say as I pick up my own coat from my seat in the booth.

And leave you there to feel the loneliness and look at the empty seat as I did before you arrived.

#keepitalive

#fffc

Dedicated to you – and you know this is for you.

One thought on “Losses

  1. I wasn’t able to see your name. My name is Susan McMahan. Your thoughts and even your sarcasm truly touched my heart.
    I’m a breast cancer survivor of 19 years, however, because of a genetic receptor HER-NEU , I have had in these last years, to battle reoccurring types of cancer, it is something I will always have to fight.
    Cancer has been a part of my life since I was 15 years old. I took card of my Grandmother (my mom) during her final days. At her memorial, I overheard relatives say “well you know, she was denied burial in sacred ground.”
    So trying to understand questions like “What happens when we die?”, “If God is loving, why would he allow so much suffering?” Started at a young age for me.
    I’m 64 years old now, I actually spend a good part of my time, trying to share hope. I was truly hoping to ease some of your sufferings.
    This is in Revelation 21:4&5. “And he will wipe out every gear from their eyes, and death will be no more. Not outcry, nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.”
    ” And the one seated on the throne said “Look!, I am making all things new. Also he says “Write! Because these words are faithful and true”.
    I don’t know what your spiritual beliefs are, I my self needed science and convincing proof. Perhaps that is you as well.
    If you could embrace this verse as a truth for yourself, it would really make a difference for hope.
    Hope to talk with you more.
    Sincerely, Susan McMahan

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