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Sharing my experiences with metastatic breast cancer …

This passage by Emily Dickinson sums up beautifully why I strive to honestly share my cancer experience and caregiving of one husband with depression, as well as others who I love and come into my life to give and receive support. I hope you find something in her words that pertains to your life. Giving back rewards us with humanity and humility – making the world a little less lonely for giver and reciever. I thank you for sharing my life’s rollercoaster ride. Keep your seatbelts on!

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain.
If I can ease one life from aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin unto its nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
– Emily Dickinson

It’s Complicated

Leave me alone, please
and stop annoying me.
Of course I love you.
I don’t blame you
for everything.
You are pissing me
off now. Do not
make me say
something I will
regret.
Of course I want
to go to your
oncology appointment.
You never told me
what time we had to go.
You only put the
schedule on the fridge
last week.
I do accept your
calendar invitations.
Quit pressuring me
or we will definitely
not have sex.
That wasn’t a
threat.
I don’t hate you.
Why do you piss
me off by saying
such stupid things.
No, I do not contradict
everything you say.
Yes I took my med.
No I am not hungry.
I don’t sleep all
of the time.
No I did not sleep well.
Why did you let me
sleep the day away.
We do go out.
I can remember
when.
You’re crazy.
Can’t you just leave
me alone
already.

Sure. I can leave
You alone.
Conversations
never change
in a dark room
full of too many
decisions
and no answers.
I walk away
again and
make breakfast
at 3:00 pm.

Without warmth
there’s no fire.