High Scanxiety

Stila cosmetics doesn’t do very good homework on its pithy quotes on the cosmetic packaging.

With every rising of the sun, think of your life as just begun…

Opening a new palette of eyeshadow by Stila Cosmetics, these two lines, misquoted and attributed to anonymous, I of course look them up in a rapid fire web search. All of one second or less later, the results for Ella Wheeler Wilcox, a prolific poet who died in 1919 comes to my attention. The rest of the couplet based, wisdom filled short poem rang so true and so apropos of my day today.

Headed out for my CT scan and have the usual and very real scanxiety. We metastatic cancer patients all get it as do the cured brothers and sisters when they’ve got to go get a check to make certain the cancer hasn’t spread or returned.

Wish me luck. And thank you Ella for your wise wonderful words. Stila cosmetics – Shame on you for not doing a millisecond of research and giving the rightful citation to the pen who wrote the words in the Wonderful in Waikiki palette. Fix it.


Female. East coast transplant living in the Bay Area of California. Living with Stage IV breast cancer. Married to the coolest guy in the universe who occasionally suffers from serious depression. Love my stepsons, although I never thought I'd have that thankless job - ever! And my best friend Simon is also my cat. How I have survived with stage IV: treatments including chemo and surgery; palliative oncology; tenacity; a dark sense of humor; support groups; and my newly reinvented career as a vintage and antiques maven. Some days I miss the old me who led a well respected and well paid life as a business strategist in high tech. So much for that. I blog to simply share my experiences and my poetic approach with others who have cancer of any kind or with their care givers and those who love them. If one person at the very least finds a little commonality or a friend out in the ether tor a smile, a common nod about this experience, or even a link to assistance, then I have accomplished a small but extraordinarily meaningful goal. Go team.

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