life with cancer

Canferatu VS The Depression Devil

One night last week Canferatu possessed my intestinal tract. The inhuman noises growled low and deep, as surely once awake, I’d look in the bathroom mirror to find I’d become vampiric, zombified, even bloodless. Only the undead, at least in movies, moan as though they’ve contracted a case of projectile diarrhea. Further proof of my […]

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Cancer Poetry

My Shoes

Try walking in these shoes just for one day. Your voice sharpened by authority – a self important tyrant of numbers counting lives in dollars. My money or my life? Extorting me for capsules of poison without which I die. I found a pot of gold burried deep out in our backyard. Yet treasure comes […]

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Depression

It’s Complicated

Leave me alone, please and stop annoying me. Of course I love you. I don’t blame you for everything. You are pissing me off now. Do not make me say something I will regret. Of course I want to go to your oncology appointment. You never told me what time we had to go. You […]

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life with cancer

The Gift of Receiving Care

With a metastatic cancer diagnosis it’s imperative that I humbly and graciously accept aid, comfort, support and do so with an open heart and mind. My well-being depends on it. In the past I found it far more difficult to take than give, but my recent caregiving experiences have given me insight into the importance of receiving care to the giver not only the receiver.

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